MY STORY/MY TESTIMONY

My Story/My Testimony

After months of thinking, I finally got the courage to start this and I would like to say “Thank you God” and “Thank you to all the people that supported and encouraged me into starting this” and “Thank you to Women in the Frontline (book) for pushing me”.  My story: Being born and raised in a Christian family, I thought I was automatically a Christian. Growing up I knew I’d have to fight for my own salvation but “did that really matter?”. I was the type of person to say “I love God” but did my actions match my words? I remember once, I told someone I was a very strong Christian and they said: “Sure if you say so”. That actually kind of hurt my feelings because I was thinking “What makes you say this? I’m not doing anything wild so I don’t understand why you actually think this of me”. But looking back now, “was he wrong?”. Lockdown made me sit down and evaluate my life. Don’t get me wrong, at the start of lockdown I knew about 7% of the bible. I knew most of the famous verses and almost all the bible stories (not all in detailed but I knew it). At least I knew the stories of Daniel, Esther, Samuel and Moses because my parents decided to give us biblical names, so what you have to do is basically live up to your name, and you needed to know the stories to live up to it. And these name occasionally comes up during every bible studies or sermons so it’s easy to know them.  When I saw people saying “Lockdown is the time to get closer to God” to be honest I thought “Here we go again with people trying to get us to feel bad about ourselves” so I rolled my eyes each time I saw it and I totally ignored it. Until I watched Greenleaf, which kind of led me to read the bible. Yes, I know Greenleaf ain’t really the show to get you excited to know God but it did for me. Jacob Greenleaf, if you know him from the show, used to lie a lot so each time he said a verse, I had to open my bible to double-check he wasn’t lying. So one day I checked it, came off the bible app and when I went back on it again, somehow I ended up on the “Parable of the farmer scattering seeds (Mark 4:1-20)” so I read it.  I liked what I read so I read more parables, and when I had problems really understanding some in-depth, google was my guy. I started praying when I read the bible which was, first thing when I woke up and the last thing before I went to bed. I tried to make that a thing because I could go a whole day then only pray before I go to bed or sometimes not. And in my prayers I always used to say “I’ll give you praise when I wake up” but I guess I never did. So I randomly got introduced to “Relationship goals by Mike Todd”, and I watched that too and I loved it so I started telling my friends and family about it. So my good cousin Ivy, being so loving, got me a book and in the middle of reading that book, I gave my life completely to God. I’ve always thought giving your life to God happened only in the church but now that I’m thinking of it, God is everywhere so why did I think that? Anyways, giving my life to God has been like the best thing I ever did.  Believing in someone you can’t see could be difficult but it’s your faith that actually removes that difficulty. Believing that there always is someone there to catch you when you fall, to make you smile, to provide for you, and to push you beyond and above your limits, listen, if this isn’t sounding “sweet” to your ears I don’t know what will. I am not perfect, I am far from perfect but I am willing to let God take control of my life now. I am willing to change some unworthy ways even though there will be a bump here and there that will probably try and take my back but with God on my side, I am fighting to become who God has called me to be. I am fighting for my salvation. I am “trusting in the Lord with all my heart and leaning not on my own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5). So I am here to ask you to join me in this journey. Let’s do this together. Let’s cry together, let’s rejoice together, let’s grow together. I know we can do this through Christ who strengthens us (Philippians 4:13). Let our journey start today and here.  My testimony: Women in the frontlines: A call to courage book (by Michal Ann Goll) says that every little thing is a testimony. So I just want to thank God for showing me this path in my life and I thank him for the people around me (friends and family). Never did I think I’d take God seriously but here I am. So God, keep showing me the way and be the lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. I hope you give me more testimonies to share with the world. Amen.  I know with our generation, God isn’t really our number one, but let’s try and give Him the change to show us that, with Him, all things are possible (Matthew 19:26). If you want that, no pressure, but you can pray this prayer. If you think you need time, take some time but don’t take too long because you never know when God will actually come. The bible says in Revelation 3:20 “Look! I stand at the door, and knock. If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends”. God is knocking, let Him in. 

Prayer: Lord, I know I am a sinner but today, I give myself to you, have your way in me. Help me know about you and follow me wherever I go. You died for me and I don’t want your death to go in vain. This I ask in Jesus name, amen.