WHY ME ?

I was sitting there and thinking and I came into a conclusion that honestly, I don’t think God is real. God is not good cause why would people go through what they go through if God is real? Why does my education have to be so difficult if God is real? Seriously though let’s think about that. Why does that illness still exist if God is real or “God is great”. Yes, I know last week I was the same person that said all that I was saying about God and He is good and everything but here I am today saying otherwise. 

I know for a quick second you got that “Wait what?” feeling and you are confused or your heart probably skipped a beat thinking “am I reading the right thing?”. Yes, you are. I know these are the thoughts that actually goes through our minds. I know we doubt the fact that God is real because of our current situations and it is normal to have that doubt. We are all humans and it happens. But we forget the fact that “we are still breathing”. It is by His grace that we are still alive. God woke you up today and said “Hey, good morning my child, today is another chance for me to show you how great I am. Today, I’m giving you another chance for you to come to me. Today I want to show you that if you abide in me and my words abide in you, ask anything and it shall be established. Today is another day for you to start walking in your purpose, my child”. People slept and didn’t wake up, some may have walked in their purpose and accomplished what God wanted them to accomplish, some didn’t get the opportunity to do so, so be grateful. You might not have the best car, the best work, the best life partner, but you have breath. 

WHY ME? 

After my first blog, I was thinking, “hmm what can I write about next” and I got the thought to write about “Reassurance”. I tried to write it by myself but it wasn’t great so I left it to God to help me write this. So today, God and I are here to reassure you. We all go through something in our lives, don’t we? And we all start to fall back and think “God if you are God, why this? Why me?”. Let me ask you this question. We know how every physical fight happens, don’t we? Have you ever seen someone stood there, hitting the air and saying “Yes I’m winning this fight?” If you have please check up on the person and see if they are “okay” because that isn’t normal. Fighting in my opinion is battling and when battling, you aim to be the winner. Yes, you might be battling with that illness, battling with that financial problem, battling with that 2,000 words essay, battling with family issues but God is here to tell you today “The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm” (Exodus 14:14). 

Just like that? Just as easy as that? Well, the bible says in Matthew 11:28 that “Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest” so my understanding is that if I go to God, He will take my burdens away from me. Yes, God knows everything that is happening to you but He wants you to personally come to him and ask Him for His help to prove to Him that “Yes you trust him and you believe He has the power to solve everything”. Asking God to help you doesn’t mean as soon as that “Amen” is said that everything will be done. Be patient, and don’t lose that faith. God told Abraham he will be a father, it took 25 years but it still happened. David waited 20 years after being chosen to be a king to finally be king. They waited that long and they were human. If they can do it you can too. 

I’m quite sure most of you know how rejection from a job can make you stressed. It was like they had a button next to them, as soon as I pressed “applied” the website was like “No boo boo, REJECT!”. That was me last year. I had to start paying my phone bills and for monthly bills for my house in university and I had no job so I was really stressed just thinking of it. On the day that I had to change my phone contract I was crying because when we called them, the prices they were saying was giving me heartburns. So I remember lying in the couch and I said “God, I leave this into your hands. Please help me”. So I decided to change carriers to see if they had cheaper contracts and I was on the phone to carphone warehouse when my twin called me to come, and that the people we called in the morning has called back saying “they will change my contract to unlimited everything even for cheaper”. I just stood there and said how can this happen like God actually knew how stressed I was and He came through when I prayed. The day after that my friend Mariam messaged me a job and told me to apply for. I was already thinking of “rejection”. So I applied for it then I went to bed. The next day I woke up to an interview email. I went to the interview and honestly, God was in control because I had no idea what the job was even about. The interviewer answered all the questions for me and all we did was just sit and talk about the famous argument: “how I thought Ghanaians were better than Nigerians” (cause he was Nigerian).  On my way back home, I was asked to donate for like some children hospital from September to February and I told the man “I wish I could but I don’t know if I will be able to. But sign me up and I’ll see what I will do”. So I was thinking “now I have bills to pay for and this” but I wasn’t worried anymore because I had a feeling God was on my side. I woke up the next day to a call saying “Congratulations, you got the job”. I did not even know how to act. Later that day, my university also called me for a job I applied months ago and I went for that interview, also to find out I got that job too. From no job to two solid, well-paid jobs and now “I had the power to choose”. God is alive. If anyone told me the day before I got all these interviews that “Sarah, don’t be stressed. Two jobs are coming your way” I would have slapped them seriously. I know this might not be big for you but it was massive for me. If God can do this for me, He can definitely do more for you. Whenever you get any rejection, smile and say “God I know you’re bringing me something better. I trust you” and say that with “faith”. Whenever you are going through anything just remember Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know I am God”. Put God before everything and He won’t let you down because “If God is for us, who can ever be against us?” (Romans‬ ‭8:31‬). ‬‬If God is our light and salvation, why should we be afraid? (Psalm 27:1). Put God first even in your toughest times and He will show you that, with Him, all things are possible (Matthew 19:26). 

Prayer: God, please help us in our hardest times to still put you first. We know you will never disappoint us and you do everything for a reason so even if things do not go according to our plans, let our faith still remain. As we pray this prayer, we commit all our problems into your hands, take charge. And fill us with all the joy and peace as we trust you. We thank you in Jesus name, Amen.  

My testimony: I thank God for another day and another chance to get closer to Him and to walk in His purpose. And I thank God for the strength, His mercy, grace, knowledge and wisdom to write this. I thank God for the blessing and favour He showed Kelly, Ivy and I on Sunday. We pray for more blessing and more testimonies in Jesus name. 

Be still, in a quiet place and listen to the song below. Listen to the words and wait on Jesus. Don’t turn back now. He will never fail you because He loves you. Have a lovely rest of the week. 

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